I hate myself.
I've really let everything fall apart. About 3 months of depression, about 5 of lifestyle changes due to work and I've. just. fallen. to. pieces.
My body is paying for it.
Craving sweets. Salty. Nothing healthy. Feeling boaty.
Gaining weight, holy shit. It's just piling on. I look terrible, but I feel worse.
I'll be coming back more. I need to figure out childcare, but once I have that set I'm there.
In the meanwhile I'm doing at least one 10 minute workout on exercise TV every day. It's not much, but its something I can manage through the fat fog of depression.
I'm also setting up other rewards. If I track my food and keep it to 1600 cals (+ or - 100) every day, drink my water and do at least my 10 minutes then every 2 weeks I'm gonna okay it with myself to buy a $10-$15 treat from sephora, lime crime or sugarpill.
I miss my damn hip bones.
*sigh*
Disgustingly yours,
Burly
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You are not alone. 60-80 hour work weeks,my gym literally up and moving on me and the holidays have put me in the same boat. Good luck to you-may we both meet our hip bones again soon.
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